Reading your words my heart aches,
I shiver from head to toe,
Thinking of how it could of been,
Now we'll never know.

I pushed you away as you tried to help,
You wouldn't leave no matter what I did,
Standing beside me as always,
Something I forbid.

You were always there for me,
Why couldn't I see,
Even now you still wait,
You wait and long for me.

Back then I felt unworthy,
Still do,
No matter how much pain I cause myself,
I know we are through.

I can never let you near me,
For fear of rejection,
Of how I look on the outside,
But then I need your protection.

You're the only one I have truly loved,
Someone I can never forget,
Although, I try hard every day,
With all the things I never did, I know I'll regret.

In my heart I know I will never be able to hold you,
Or to look into your beautiful eyes,
I will never be able to be in the same room,
Or hear your laughter and your cries.

I want you to have a beautiful life,
Please forgive me for not loving me,
That's something that will never parish,
Now I must set you free.