Bridges I've burned and some not passed,
For all my life I have asked for nothing but love,
I have given of myself and have crumpled at times,
For life seems to not play fair with this heart,
Loves come and gone and some seem to linger,
I've made a lot of mistakes through out my life,
I've learned from other's their opinion of love,
For at times I have felt I have found the meaning,
Only to turn into abuse, regret and loss,
Is my path to journey toward the endless dark,
That leads to the broken heartedness of my life?
Do I wear my heart on my sleeve to be punctured?
To bleed my soul for other's to drink and never refill?
Why must I be the lonely heart, the drowning soul,
That gives until I cannot give anymore?
To want nothing more than to truly be loved,
I have gone through several partners...three, I might add,
To no avail...just violence, abuse in some form,
To be belittled and accussed...to watch my kids suffer,
I have changed my patterns for the search of love,
For I will not seek out those who just need nurturing,
But those who can nurture, as well,
I have learned a lot and still have a lot to learn,
For love is not only an emotion, but a state of my well being,
My journey has lasted thirteen years,
To some that's not long, but to me it's long enough,
When you've traveled the path of abuse for so long,
You become weary of trust itself, even in myself,
I have to learn to trust again, to believe,
To hold on to my faith and my spirit,
For when I finally find the bridge I am to cross,
I know my life will then be complete,
For God will be walking beside me.